Monday, January 19, 2004
blah
i have an assigment for my writing II class...so i'm doing this instead.
what am i working towards? i'm just stuck in limbo.
i want to talk about and see it all.
dark eyes::my genius, my teacher::he taught me of life, love and the cruel world::he was beautiful::my hope::natas hope, he took that away.
::but i'll find it::
i have an assigment for my writing II class...so i'm doing this instead.
what am i working towards? i'm just stuck in limbo.
i want to talk about and see it all.
dark eyes::my genius, my teacher::he taught me of life, love and the cruel world::he was beautiful::my hope::natas hope, he took that away.
::but i'll find it::
Wednesday, January 14, 2004
I will never be happy. I am just a miserable, selfish girl. i blame it on ______ . i blame everything on other people. fuck.
both this past sunday and monday i had the opportunity to enhance thought. so afterwards i am lying in bed on each night and i kept thinking about how insignificant my life is to the whole scheme of things. the only thing i really want to be happy is a place to sleep and him...but in order for that they'd have to be miserable. and i kept thinking about who would really miss me. pretty much no one. i also thought about the pain of dying and i felt it coming on. i really wanted to die, either that or i want someone to perscribe me valium.
both this past sunday and monday i had the opportunity to enhance thought. so afterwards i am lying in bed on each night and i kept thinking about how insignificant my life is to the whole scheme of things. the only thing i really want to be happy is a place to sleep and him...but in order for that they'd have to be miserable. and i kept thinking about who would really miss me. pretty much no one. i also thought about the pain of dying and i felt it coming on. i really wanted to die, either that or i want someone to perscribe me valium.
